Thursday, April 24, 2014

Pea Green

...with envy!
Has anyone watched "Gone with the Wind?"
In that movie Scarlett says that at some point.
Lately, envy has reared its ugly head in my world.
Facebook is a source, but I also think that Facebook alone does not make one jealous.
One must be in a {funky} state to begin with in order to look on Facebook and become jealous of mere {aquaintances}.
Recently I mentioned my philosophy on Jealousy, which I have had for a very long time....since I was around 12.
Jealousy:
There is no need for it because If you are jealous of someone for any reason, you only have two choices:
1.  Get what they have--work hard etc, and figure out how to have that thing, or situation, or {whatever}
or
2.  Realize that you are not gonna have that {thing} and get the hell over it!
I mean jealousy is a terrible feeling and if every part of your logical mind tells you "that ain't ever gonna happen."--Then you need to just forget that {thing} and get the hell over it!
The END.
So, at 35 I have just been wallowing in jealousy!
I get on facebook and see someone who sells butt lift videos for a living in a {pyramid} sales fashion from her house--and I will be!--she and her husband are going on a cruise--FORFREE! b/c she has sold so many butt lift videos!!
**What I am thinking**
Why in the HELL did I spend six years becoming educated to have a job at which I will never even make 50 thousand dollars a year???-When I could sell F*cking butt lift videos and go on cruises!!???
I can tell ya....sometimes having a {profession} no vale la pena!  Some days there is not a lot of gratification in what I do.
If, however, I were not on facebook-- I would barely know this person.  I certainly would not know about her all expense paid cruise--points against facebook!
I guess anyone who reads this blog can take this example and multiply this by ten and then there is the facebook fun/my life is wonderful/boastfest that I have decided I can no longer suffer.
Now, to stop this terrible wave of jealousy that has swept over me...that is another story.
It is totally my problem...some mindset thing...and it will change! :)

Coming back??

The blogging traffic has been light lately.
The last time I  posted was a while ago.
BUT
I think that I am coming back!
Recently I decided that Facebook is not for me.
So, I have cancelled my account.
Therefore, if I want to cyber exhibit my life, this will be my vehicle.
Right?
Also, I have an itch to make some kind of excitement in my life...
Conquer a reading list?
Become a no waste home for the summer?
(have y'all checked out that blog?)
....hmm..
Whatever my excitement is, it has to be free or near free.
All of our summer money will be spent before summer arrives...so
Free excitement it is!
Ideas anyone?
Whatever my idea is, I will blog about it.
No waste is seeming like my favorite so far.
Trying to be trash free is really a challenge in today's world of {buy new plastic Easter Eggs every year}.
My children thought I have lost my mind when I was trying to explain catching the waste water in a buckeet (from the shower) and then dumping it into the toilet...
They will need an example I think.
Melissa was baking recently, and that is fun too...maybe will do some healthy baking and blog about that!
I also have two stories to tell, so those will be forthcoming.

The End--for now...

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

Can anyone guess what our letter focus of the week is?

Look what Eva is holding...
What is Elena holding--hint..we are in a restaurant.
Look what Victor is holding, 
and finally...look what I cooked in the middle of the island. :)
Fun after work!
{homeschool} LOL!

Tuesday, April 1, 2014

Had to be today...


Because that is when I found it, cut it, broke it up, cooked it, and ate it....YUM!
All for me!

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Happy Birthday Elena!

Can you tell how exctied she is to be having cake for breakfast? :)
We had a family party on Sunday, but this morning she got to eat one of the last pieces of her cake.
The other piece will be for her this afternoon! :)

Elena is sweet!
That is the word that describes her--among many others like, curious, nature-loving, caring, friendly, respectful...the list can go on and on--
BUT, since the day she was born we knew that Sweet! Was the word for her. :)

Nine years ago right now, I was in a lot of PAIN!--she was born right before The View came on. LOL
10:57.

Sunday, March 23, 2014

Basketball and nails





I remember the night I went into labor with Elena I {very calmly} painted my nails a bright coral color.  I di dthe whole manicure!  I mean cuticles etc.  Then the two coats of polish, and the top clear coat...just to pass the time away.  While I did nails, Andy watched basketball.  We won some big tournament that year..UNC did...
That was nine years ago! Today we had a little party for Elena, her actual birthday is Tuesday, and she will be nine years old, but the day of labor --was the 24th! :)   Now she is doing nails with me!  We just sat and had a whole manicure station with the nail art kit she asked for for her birthday. :)   Right now, Andy is watching basketball...
We are having basketball and nail art fun!

Friday, March 21, 2014

My Mama is a Poet...

...and I am not!
BUT, I will say that even though I suffer having a poem of desperation on my heart, I can value
that the poetry needs to escape.
Although I cannot write the poem, I can appreciate the one I need at any given moment.
I have perfected the one that is necessary for new parents--that will draw the tears bursting to be shed...
I can read the one she typed for me to keep on my refridgerator to read when I am mired down in the drudgery  and boredom of life, to remind me that, drudgery and samedom is a big part of what life is all about.
I think that poetry is in the genes, and the appreciation of poetry is found among those of us who know we need it, but are unable to necessarily create it!
Appreciation of an art is to be admired in this case!
You see, when I was growing up, my mama would just quote this stuff to us...and I would think, "she is off her rocker," and I woudl ask her, please tell me what this means...
Then she would.  It can be quite alarming to hear your mother tell of the boredom and frustration of her life via poetry, and still know that she loves you more than anything.  It is also the kind of honesty that all mothers should be able to impart on their youth!  
Ojala que un dia de estos ya tenga yo dinero y un rato (largo) para irme con mis hijos y me esposo a un rincon del mundo que escojo yo!   Ojala que tenga yo la oportunidad de escaparme --solo un ratito para adventura!
And looking at everyone else's fun on facebook, is like salt in the wound, for real.
My philospophy on {jealousy} fails me in moments of true hormonal weakness!
I would like to link back to my philosophy on Jealousy here, but since I did not tag my posts, I am not able.
It is a rather, Pick yourself up by your bootstraps mentality, though.
When I am at my weakest, however, I just resort to crying in my shower. ;).
AND then.. I count my blessings!
My Mama is a poet!
My sister is my best friend!
My husband takes care of me!
My children are dears!
My dogs don't shit on the rug...{very often}.
My washing machine works!
I love to exercise!
That is what I have, for now...(and my {kitty} stashed away...)